“Me-time” “Self-Care” “R&R” – these trendy terms are popping up all over social media, accompanied by pictures of bubble baths, pretty lattes, and charcoal face masks. There is a lot to be said for carving out time for “self care” in your life and something I realized recently that I desperately needed to do.
Let me back track for a second. Rewind about a month and I’ve got 7000 things on my plate and a to do list that never ends: I’m prepping to host a yoga challenge (coordinating with sponsors and the other hosts, getting pictures prepped, etc), preparing to travel back East for a wedding, trying to squeeze in some blog posts to keep the website current, posting daily on insta and working to cultivate real connections through the social media sphere, teaching yoga 3x a week, prepping for a yoga audition, sending out my resume to other studios, trying to maintain my own yoga practice, all while working a full time job (my team is currently under staffed by two people as well), trying to spend some QT with friends, my boyfriend and kitten, and trying to really be present in long distance relationships (my family and most of my best friends are all back East). I was pouring energy out in all directions.
Here’s the thing – for the most part, I loved it. Every area I was pouring energy into was something l loved and felt strongly about; they were all aspects of my life that I wanted to grow or nurture. I hit a breaking point at the end of August where I just felt like it was all too much. I felt like I never had a moment to breathe. I decided I need to create some space. I wanted to do it all, but in this case all was too much. I was running a deficit on my energy and it was catching up with me.
Creating space meant some difficult choices. It meant trimming some aspects of my life that I do truly love and bring me joy. I tried to take a holistic view of everything that was currently on my plate in order to create balance. To continue the food analogy (#fatkidatheart) I identified what the main courses were – what were the staples in my life that nourished me and were a necessity? This came down to time really being present with my friends and family (in person, phone, etc.), my career, and my personal yoga practice. Everything else was just dessert if you will. While some dessert is great and delicious, too much is too much. Food analogies make everything make sense, no?
All of that to say, I’m pulling back on those “dessert” areas of my life for the next 3-6 months to help create some space in my life and find a point of balance. That means less time devoted to Instagram and the blog. Thanks to the #shadowban, Instagram has helped to kick start time away from the platform, but I have found myself craving it as well. While it is such an amazing tool for connection, it can also suck you in for hours a la the beginning days of Facebook when you would endlessly scroll. I’ve stepped away from hosting some challenges (thanks to all for understanding) and plan on posting less, but more meaningfully. Quality > quantity. Creating space also meant stepping back from teaching, at least for the meantime. I’ll still be teaching once a week which is a perfect sweet spot of being able to continue something I love without it being overwhelming.
I’m planning on dialing back for the next 3-6 months to create some space for “me time”, some space to relax, to be present, and to reflect. It’s pretty hard to figure out what you want when you never have a moment to think about it. At the end of the 3-6 months, or whenever I feel some clarity, maybe I’ll start adding things back in, maybe I won’t, maybe I’ll redirect my path in another direction. TBD friends. Until then I’ve got some time carved out for bubble baths and almond milk lattes.